Sunday, May 31, 2009

My new favorite song...

You're everything I could want
That I could need
If I could see
You want me
Could I believe?
'Cause You're perfectly
All I want, all I need
If I could just feel Your touch
Could I be free?
Why do You shine so?
Can a blind man see?
Why do You call?
Why do You beckon me?
Can the deaf hear the voice of love?
Would You have me come?
Can the cripple run?
Are You the one?
To raise me up
From this grave
Touch my tongue
And then I'll sing
Heal my limbs
Then joyfully I'll run to You
'Cause You're everything
And I'm alive and I'll
I'm alive and I'm free.
David Crowder Band

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

...Acts 4:34 describes the early church:
“There was not a needy person among them.”
This is what the church does.
Every member will have his needs met.
God will test us to see if we are a church or a club.
- John Piper

Love is Vulnerable

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable."

Monday, May 25, 2009

“Jesus does not say, ‘Come to me, all you who have learned how to concentrate in prayer, whose minds no longer wander, and I will give you rest.’ No, Jesus opens his arms to his needy children and says, ‘Come to me, all who are weary and heaven-laden, and I will give you rest.The criteria for coming to Jesus is messiness. Come overwhelmed with life. Come with your wandering mind. Come messy.”
—Paul Miller

Saturday, May 23, 2009

I want it NOW!

Malli's first shopping trip to TOYS 'R US.

While in Toys 'R Us today, I thought it would be fun to let Malli sit in a precious, little pink car. As soon as her little fanny made contact with the seat, she gripped that steering wheel and smiled that infectious smile of hers. It was so cute watching her as she opened and closed the plastic door, honked the horn, and instantly figured out how to drive! Her excitement even drew a small audience of fellow shoppers. See picture above!


Never did I imagine that she would become attached to it so quickly. All was good until I tried to remove her from the plastic vehicle. Her squeals drew the attention of not only fellow shoppers, but the full staff of the Toy 'R Us management team. It took much effort along with a quick draw of Gerber sweet corn puffs from my over-sized bag to quieten her down and distract her. For a minute there I was tempted to buy the darn thing and even pay the extra ten bucks for the already assembled version! Her parents beat me to it....they decided to buy it and give it to her on her first birthday (June 18).

You know, I got to thinking about Malli's meltdown and I confess I am just as impatient in my spiritual walk. I want answers to my prayers NOW. I really am tired of waiting. If screaming would bring results, I would sure let 'er rip! Remember Veruca Salt, the fictional character from the Roald Dahl novel Charlie and the Chocolate Factory? She regularly exerts petulant behavior in order to get what she desires, and even her parents are not immune to her outbursts. In other words, she's a brat! Well, my grand daughter is NOT a brat (yet) but I have determined that I least in my spiritual life.

There is hope though...I am reminded tonight that my Heavenly Father loves me. He wants good things for me. In His timing he will answer. He loves me and wants the best for me. I know He cares about my every need Matthew 7:11 says So if you who are evil know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good things to those who keep on asking him. Waiting upon God protects me, deepens my trust in Him, forces me to seek His ways and brings Him the most glory. Psalm 27:14 says Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.

Keep asking.


Be of good courage.

Friday, May 22, 2009

The Paradox of Grace...

"... He who insists he is right will be pronounced wrong,
while he who admits he is wrong will be declared right.
The righteousness of God is only given
to those who stand in the sinners place.”
- Stanley Voke

Wednesday, May 20, 2009


Much of my life I have lived in fear. "Fear of rejection" had a firm grip on me for far too long. Now that I seem to have slain that dragon it seems I am stumbling on the "fear of the unknown." The "what-ifs" trip me up throughout the day and hold me captive.

Micca Campbell writes, Right thinking leads to right living. As we practice taking each stray thought captive, our thoughts begin to reflect the mind of Christ, and so do our actions...Fearless living is achieved when we take captive every thought that doesn't line up with God's truths. Either our thoughts can take us captive, or we can take them captive. The difference lies in where we place our focus.

For me to have that abundant life, a life free from fear I must surrender my fears and keep my eyes on my Saviour replacing my thoughts with His thoughts. Philippians 4:8 says
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable----if anything is excellent or praiseworthy---think about such things.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Removing the mask!

“The only way to come to God is by taking off any spiritual mask. The real you has to meet the real God. He is a person.
Your heart could be, and often is, askew. That’s okay. You have to begin with what is real. Jesus didn’t come for the righteous. He came for sinners. All of us qualify. The very things we try to get rid of—our weariness, our distractedness, our messiness—are what get us in the front door! That’s how the gospel works. That’s how prayer works.
In bringing your real self to Jesus, you give him the opportunity to work on the real you, and you will slowly change. The kingdom comes when Jesus becomes king of your life. But is has to be your life. You can’t create a kingdom that doesn’t exist, where you try to be better than you really are. Jesus calls that hypocrisy—putting on a mask to cover the real you.
So instead of being paralyzed by who you are, begin with who you are. That’s how the gospel works. God begins with you.”
—Paul Miller, A Praying Life

Thursday, May 14, 2009


490. another good workout
491. fish, grits and sweet potatoes for dinner
492. a financial blessing
493. burned fingers healing
494, honest talk
495. reconnecting with a high school friend

Monday, May 11, 2009

What is it about?

"It is not about a ritual; it is about relationship...It is not about the times of the day; it is about the timelessness of His presence. It is not about appeasing God; it is about resting in His provision." -Ravi Zacharias

Thursday, May 7, 2009

What's in your closet?

I had a wonderful conversation with my daughter last night. I love those moments when she invites me to crawl in bed with her, stays off the phone, sets aside her latest novel, and shares her heart. Last night we talked about lots of things ... college, her boyfriend, etc. Then we got off on a interesting topic ... how easy it is to let our thoughts take control. How many times have I allowed my thoughts to completely control me, taking up space in my spirit. It's a daily process of throwing out the unnecessary things in my spirit closet and allowing God to transform and renew my mind. (Romans 12:2)

Jennifer Rothschild says, Our words are powerful. Especially the words we say to ourselves. We must speak truth to our souls because we seldom forget what we have stored away. You are a reflection of what you think. What you hang in your closet is what you will clothe yourself with.Your self talk will affect who you are. When you speak truth to your soul you will live out the truth. We have borrowed unbecoming beliefs from other people and hung them in our thought closets. We should refuse to let untruths and destructive words and thoughts occupy prime space in our minds' closets.You and I must take some control of our thoughts. We must train them to match up with the truth. If we don't keep a hold on them, they will soon gain a hold on us.

More scriptures...

Take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. (Rom. 12:21).

Whatever is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, and admirable think on these things. (Phil. 4:8).

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Thankful for...

484. a nap
485. sister and niece spending the night
486. a visit from Griff, Missy, and Malli
487. leftovers for supper
488. a hot bath
489. the promises of God

Monday, May 4, 2009

Making room

Taylor is away at college. Griff is married now. The upstairs bedroom is empty where my boys that grew into men slept. Empty. The room, a little too uncluttered for my taste. I resist the temptation to scatter some clothes on the floor, pull back the comforters on their beds, toss a few towels here and there.

Then the ringing of the phone interrupts the silence.

Stressed out single-mom/sister has taken a new job and must get up before daybreak. Niece will need a ride to school. They ask if I can take niece to school. Niece wants her mother to stay with her. They ask if they can both sleep over.

My answer: Of course!

I'll need to change the linens, spot-dust, and that bathroom must be cleaned, too. Lay out fresh towels. Oh, and they will want something to eat when they get here. I could warm up the pasta from supper.

Suddenly that empty room has become a home away from home for two. And I am pleased.

My father-in-law once told me I had the gift of hospitality. I don't know if that's true, but I do know I enjoy making others feel welcome. I think that is how we are supposed to live. Always eager to extend grace. It should be a way of life because of the grace God extended to us.
It would seem that continually extending grace and mercy to me would be difficult for Jesus. I am so hard-headed and stubborn at times. But He always welcomes me into His loving arms. The Grace Giver.

Gotta go. They will need some blueberry muffins for breakfast.

I once was blind and comatose...

Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees,
you hypocrites!
You are like whitewashed tombs,
which look beautiful on the outside
but on the inside are full of dead men’s bones
and everything unclean.
Matthew 23:27

It has taken some not-so-pleasant happenings in my personal life to wake me from my blind and comatose state. You see, for far too long I assumed that a building with a sign outside indicated whether or not Jesus resided in a place. At one time I even apologized to my children for not being able to afford to put them in a 'Christian school.'
It would be safe to say that I have had an arrogant attitude and it became easy to play God, judging, condemning. I recognize now how foolish it was to try to define God and attempt to limit who He is.

His grace knows no boundaries.

Yes, you could accurately say that in the past four years I have learned humility and recognized that God is God and I am not.

He is is omnipotent and omnipresent.

Personally, I have seen Jesus in many places outside the walls of churches or religious meetings. Yes, I have experienced His love in some non-traditional places.

His redeeming grace and mercy is for all. Anywhere. Anytime. Anyplace.

If you will recall, Jesus didn’t spend much time inside religious institutions, in fact He often rebuked the Pharisees. Instead He went out among the people, healing and preaching the Good News. In love. Not out of self-righteousness, pity, or superiority.

Simply love.

Oh, Father thank you for opening my eyes. Forgive me for my blindness. Lead me where you would have me go. Not in the footsteps of man, but in your footsteps alone.

Sunday, May 3, 2009


We are family!
Griff and Missy - wed 5/1/09

Griff and Missy married Friday, May 1, 2009. It was simple, elegant, and reverent. Immediate family gathered at Emma Ward Park at noon. There was no music. Fresh flowers cut that morning from a friend's yard were the only decorations. Grandmothers and aunts brought chicken salad, punch, fruit, homemade wedding cookies, and a friend made a sweet wedding cake.

The focus was really on what they were about to enter into. A holy covenant. Theirs has not been the traditional dating/engagement relationship. So many times I was reminded that although I may know what is best I am not in control. There is only ONE who can take this relationship, this marriage and make it something beautiful. God Bless You both as you begin your life together. I love you. And my beautiful grand daughter.

Understand this... dear brothers and sisters:
you must all be quick to listen,
slow to speak,
and slow to get angry.
Human anger does not produce the righteousness God desires."
James 1:19-10, NLT